John Robert Gunter

We miss you very much son. We could never have asked for a better son than what you have been to your mother and I. There is not a day that goes by, that we don't think of you. There is not a day that goes by, that we ask ourselves why? There is not a day that goes by, without a tear in our eye. There is not a day that goes by, without feeling emptiness within ourselves. There is not a day that goes by, knowing your family will never be the same. I know it seems we are feeling sorry for ourselves, well, we are, because your not with us and we miss you deeply. I truly don't think you know how many people you have hurt. Life has changed not just for your family, but your friends will never be the same without your friendship. As time goes on I will be back to this note, to add to things I just wrote.

Love you,

Mom and Dad

Johnny, they say that with absence the heart grows fonder...that seems to be very true. In your absence we have all found out exactly how much of a family that we have become. We have taken care of each other, and we have noticed that you have returned several times to help each of us out. We will never forget you...our little butterfly, and we miss you more and more with every passing day. Love Always, Christina and Kyle Hemsted

I sit here and I wonder what was so wrong that you made this decision. The feelings that I feel right now I can't even put into words. I will never forget that night and how I felt the moment I knew there was nothing we could to save you. I will never forget the emotions that I saw...I saw grown men unable to walk because they were crying so hard. The thing that broke my heart the most is that your dad fell into my arms crying...how do you deal with something like that? That is the last thing I thought I would ever do...is grieve with your family because you decided to be selfish and take yourself away from everyone.

It has been almost 4 months...but it has seemed like so much longer. It just feels like its a temporary thing. But in reality I know that its not. I replay that whole night over and over again...I just wish I would have answered your phone call. I just wanted to tell you that I loved you one last time. I know that you knew that...but it would just have mad me feel better. It makes me sad that you couldn't talk to me about whatever was really bothering you....this was no way out..just an easy way. Your pain is gone...but you have affected so many other people because of this choice you made. You truly touched so many people in so many ways...ways that you never knew existed. So many people cared about you and only wanted the best for you. I was one of them!!!! I guess I can't really reflect on that...that's not what is important. But what is important is how you touched me! I loved you from the moment I met you! I know that we had our share of ups and downs...but our friendship stayed strong thru everything. I know not many people will understand the type of friendship we had..it was unique. But it was one that I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. We just clicked and had so much fun together. You accepted me for me and respected it...thats a true friend! You always cared about what was going on in my life....even when I didn't want to admit that you did! If I would have known this is how it was gonna end...I wouldn't have wasted time being stubborn!!! No one could make me laugh the way you did...you just always brought a smile to my face...even when we argued!!

This is such a frustrating time for me as well as everyone else who loves you. I look at pictures of you and I...and I just get so angry! There are so many things that I had left to tell you....so many more things that I wanted to learn about you. I don't even know what I said last to you....I just can't remember. Do you know how weird it is not to see you at my house just chilling with the fam...or how it was on the 3rd at the firewords without you there?? I just wish you would have taken all of those and other things into consideration before you did this!!

I will never forget that night and how I saw you laying there helpless. Seeing you hooked up to machines was just surreal and absolutely killed me!! I wanted to wake up from this nightmare..but that just wasn't going to happen. I cried and cried...the kind of crying that I have never experienced in my life. It was so empty and I felt so alone. You were my other half...Johnny-Pooh and Abba-Doo. There won't be another one like you in my life...just not replaceable. Like I said you and I had a unique kind of friendship, but I believe that we were lovers in a sense. Not in a sexual manner at all..but we were in love with each other and would do anything for one another...and I think that is absolutely amazing! I just want you to know that I would have done anything for you..and that I do love you and always will! I can't imagine how my life would have been without you in it....sounds corny...but you completed me! I will miss your smart ass remarks about EVERYTHING!! As well as that cocky smile you had! You were a great guy...too bad you couldn't see that within yourself. I just hope you are happy with the choice you made and that you can deal with it forever....just unreal that you aren't here with us. But I know that you are there...just not how we would like you there.

Well I guess to make a long story short....I love you and miss you dearly!